Author: Emily

Here let the land repose —
bless it —
and discover the value of fallow.
Let them have a home —
fox, jay,
goldenrod, walnut —
up against the fence where the creeper goes.
Bring water.
Bring what you must purge.
Anoint yourself and this ground.
Let go, return it to earth,
And bless it! —
all you gods —
show us how to be made whole.

The supernatural quality of this silence —

silence that is not silent,
birdsong stilled —

leads me back to the river to kneel —

hands to head,
hands to heart,
hands to earth

— with my offering of tears to the ocean.
(“I still have a couple more years.”)

Maples are turning,
and redwing flocks follow green down.
Robins and bluebirds trace the salt backward
to where I watch,
eyes closed,
behind the gate that separates wild and will.

And I can’t tell you anymore,
how it is.
I thought it just hurt —
age and unbalance —
but it is more than that
and worse than it was.
So I make this silence a devotion.
They follow. They watch, the birds.
They know I can tell it.
And how.
And to whom.

i read love like a sentence,
with resistance.

forget it.

and forgotten —
that we were just fodder for the wheel,
an illusion of Will.

and I am self(ish).

we have to let go of the need for a Future.
(how I fear for Us.) —

walk away.walk away.

we get real small.
fish in a cup running over.
break down the gates.

it is here.now

Shine the Light
inward,
that you might
shine the Light
outward.

Heaven tried to warn me
about Chiron —
the echo of the wound,
circling back round again.
Look right into his eyes.
Face that fear.

After all,
I’ve been doing that work anyway:
rattle a skeleton key
and the ghosts come out to dance.
I have to close my eyes,
or look out the window,
or finally run away
to that ground where I can bury my feet
and wait to remember how I am held,
even when I am not held.

And what would The Fool have to say about that?

It’s a thin rope that moors us.
And the tide is getting higher.

Still,
trust life.
You are held.

I’ve been watching this side of the window

trying to remember

how to be alive

— don’t try —

I think I can remember

how

With the greening leaves,
sit —
the worship of morning light.

Remembering my stained glass season,
how I turned away from the lovingcup
to far inside,
too far,

and now must wake again.

And bow,
and bow,
and bow,

until I can recall —
to slow and rest,
open and illuminated,

cup overflowing.

I, Queen,

hidden behind a foolish face.

We keep passing the loving cup.

But practice makes perfect,

and our ships are always coming in.

He rides the wave that brings the cup back to me –

freely and in all selfless innocence given –

filled with fire,

not the sea.